I Will Be There...

2010-09-23T16:51:00.000+08:00

I am currently at work
with nothing to do.

YAY! (:

okay i am boredddddd.

2010-09-06T21:36:00.001+08:00

I have successfully completed my transition to 21 years old.
HAHA.

many many thanks to soooo many people.
for xl and brown, they went check in with me. and entertain me (:
haha and endure the boredness cos there was only 3 of us at first. and teaching me to play pool. wahaha. i am the expert now. lol not. many love.

and hm, qingg, vann for coming despite so late and so tiring. love youuuuuuuu (:
and granting my birthday wish to watch vampire sucks WHICH REALLY SUCKS.
oh my god, this is the worst movie I ever watch. so much worse than the movie, 408 or sth like that.
THE GAGS are so lameeee.
i dont know whether to laugh or to cry lah. stupid show.

lol i think i said the sentence, it's my birthday wish, more than twenty times in two days' time. HAHAHA.
oh well, i got the special privilege. and became super evil too and mean. lol.

pool-ed two times.
HAHA xl is the best motivator EVER.
haha cos i sucks at it.

ate so many many food.
HAHA. bbq chicken, meesiam, yakun, curry puff, dessert.
so many many.

watched a second movie, aftershock.
and it was super nice and sad at the same time.
i cried. LOL. it was super heartwrenching.
and we couldnt really understand the feeling unless we are parents you know.
:(
HAHA change of moods all of a sudden.

received many lovely presents.
my polaroid camera (: is my loveeeeeee.
thanks akkkk (:

my wedges from vann. YAY! (: super super love it.
i wore it today.

my giraffe-theme presents from xl,
super cuteeeeeeeeeeee.
(:
super loveeeeeeee.

my gmask voucher from twin and pop.
SUPER HAPPY. i can get my winnie the pooh cover (:

crystal necklace from claud nat and ritty.
pwreeeeeeeety (:
heehee, loveeeeeeeee.

the cute elephant from beryl.
SOOOOO cuteeeeeee. loveeee it.

scheduler and stationary from xj and adg.
haha so typical of guys. HAHA. ready for school (:

perfume and keychain from cousins (:
smells super nice.

and the lovely scrump? from my sis (:
haha its sooooooo cute. love my sis and the cute softtoy.

bag from buddy and minyi.
loveee.

and flowers from nat (:
as a replacement for.....
HAHA. love you blossom.

thanks 222 for coming and making it wonderful (:

i got so much to thank for and be grateful about.
i think everytime in the future if i ever feel sad and lonely, I will rmb this day and realise i shouldnt be sad (:
cos I received so much love and care and thoughts.

my sis super love the polaroids. LOL.
and i super love it too. (:

thanks for all the wishes. personally, facebook, smses.
if i didnt reply, it isnt that I dont accept the wishes but cos I want to reply but keep forgetting.
but i do thank youuu.

oh and of cos before i forget, i think the people that i need to thank the most will be my parents.
cos of the money they spend, the time they spend, and everything that they do for me.
they are the most impt people in my life (:

todayyyy is such a tiring day.
i replied so many emails.
but the number keeps increasing.
oh my goddd.
i gave up clearing all and went home.
tired :(

i am getting a new colleague tmr.
to help out.
hopefully, we can be friends. lol, if not very weird.
yay!

ohhh and i super love my cakeeeee.
haha its so princesssy.
(:

tatas(:

2010-08-29T20:42:00.002+08:00

Actually i still gt no idea what i want.
Lol.

Okay here it goes

1. I really want that polaroid cam.
In fact i wanted to go buy it myself but my mum stopped me cos she say might as well ask someone to give me. I want the bronze one. Please! (:

2. I want that pair of wedges! At fep. Please ask van to pin point u which one.
I really really want that one! I love shoes.

3. I really want the pooh bear itouch cover. Have been searching for it very looooong. So please if u find it, give me. I will love you beri much.

4. Blazer. Cos its freaking in the office and i need it so i can wear my dresses to work. Black one please.

5. Shoes. Heels. U help me check, the back of the heels shouldnt be hard as rock. Lol. If it isnt, i like. Again, i love shoes so even though i have a lot of it, i will still love yours.

6. My pooh bears gt thrown away when i moved house. Sad :(
So big one? Lol big big one.

Okay i shall update this when i think of more.

Sorry for being so emo just now.
Okay now(:

Btw, i wear 37 shoe size.

2010-08-28T12:27:00.000+08:00

I need to go buy my birthday outfit today.
But i am super lazyyyyy.
But at least i settled my doorgifts, my cake and my catering!
And i am still left with banner.
And my art isnt too good to start with.

I seem to be getting better.
Thank goodness, i tot i might never recover.
Stupid doc from polyclinic. I hate youuuuu.

I find it so hard to talk to my customers cos of my voice.
And some even laughed at me.
Lol.
Can my voice quickly return to normal? :(

They are hirin a new temp to help me out.
I hope they are not sacking me haha
I came home happily that i will have a new friend,
My parents think i am dumb to be happy. Lol

Okay , who cares. There are more jobs ard i hope.

My to buy list:
A dress
A belt

And i need to do my nails too! Ahhhh
No time no time.
And money of cos.

Cant wait till next friday and sat! (:

Walalalala! (:

2010-08-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

i forget to mention in my previous post.
that it isnt a emo post, or that i write it cos i was feeling upset.
in fact i write it in high spirits.
feeling happy and peaceful.
lol.

because these issues have happened before.
and i have deal with it in a typical xinyi way.
and i have move on too.

like the priority thing, it doesnt hurt me that much anymore.
i still make the same mistake then and now.
but then there will never be any equality in friendship.
and it isnt about who puts in more.
its about how this friendship works out.
i may be willing to do something for a friend that she wont do for me, and yet she will be willing to do something for me that i wont do for her.
so its not equal.
and will never be.
but then, its okay and perfectly normal.
i am happy that i am able to do somethings for my friends.
because i believe in making use of who i am.

there are somethings that will never change.
like who i am, how i am, what i am.
despite the fact that all the times i told myself to change.
unless it is something that will cause others hurt, then i would change it no matter how hard it is.

even though it might sound ridiculously stupid, i am thoroughly happy in the fact that every night i sleep, i feel totally at peace with myself.
no guilt conscious or whatsoever.
no niggling thought.

actually despite the fact that i complained, grumbled, whined and rant,
if i have another choice or chance to do it again,
i would do the same thing all over and again.

i have listened to many people,
different advices.
and those are totally extreme ones on the two ends.
i gladly take some, leave some.
like i said, if i change to be someone i am not, then i wouldnt be the same person again.
things wouldnt be the same, and friendships wouldnt be the same again.

and if i wasnt the same person anymore, would you interact with me in the same way?
i doubt so.
LOL.

so yes, i am HAPPY (:

i am sick.
lol
again.
fever coming back again and again.
today was much much better.
lucky.
if not i would have to lie in bed for dontknowhowmany days.
lol.
i need to take more vit C.
got to go stock up on that.

i finally settled on many stuff.
i ordered my catering and cake.
and the cake is dammmmmmnnnn pwreeetty.
HAHA.
i super like.

yay.
no more things to do.

shall go sleep somemore.
haha.
wohooo. (:

2010-08-20T12:00:00.001+08:00

I was so busy busy busy in the morning yesterday.
was thinking of how to finish up all.

then in the end i got nothing to do after lunch.
lol
totally bored.
was reading past past emails.

lol. damn funny.
i am so evil.

thanks to all the lovely people who replied my msg for my birthday (:
appreciate the quick reply.

i helped vann upload so many photos. HAHA.
stupid pop.
say I am irritating when i uploaded the photos.

My voice is damn sexxxy right now.

Cough and flu. Damn nice combi.

I learned not to have high expectations.
When you dont have, you wont feel sad when it didnt reach what u want.
Lol.

Sometimes i forget how everybody is different.
I forget what i think should be the way does not mean others think the same too.
Selfish? I want others to think the same too.
Wont the world be much beautiful then? Haha

The she/he, him/her, you in this post refers to nobody in particular. You can pretend its whoever you want hahaha.

Like how the priority issue comes into mind.
You treat her as someone who holds a high priority in life.
You will be willing to give up or sacrifice somethings for her.
You happily thought she will also treat you as a high priority.
Cos afterall you two are close buddies/ friends.
Then you realise at the most impt time, that she doesnt.
To her, you are just not high enough to make her sacrifice things that you may thought is a lower priority to her, but actually isnt.
And the hurt and pain comes in.
And then lament bout why she does that.

However, she never once promise you that you will be a high priority.
Even if she did, it doesnt always hold true cos its not a black and white thing.
You have yourself to blame for putting so much faith and watch them all destroyed cos you are too stupid to realise not everybody thinks like you.

Hence, when you do something for someone
Never expect someone will do it back for you. Unless its sth bad lol.
Cos not everybody thinks its necessary to do such a thing for someone.

Just like how you thought cos you enjoyed her company and friendship,
She will also enjoy your company and friendship right?

But then again, you dont realise it isnt true until it's too late then you are the one feeling hurt
But then you have who to blame?

is thinking everybody will be nice people too naive?
Treating everybody nice because in your mind, they are all nice people and deserve to be treated nicely, is this too stupid?

I never goes ard doubting anybody's motives before.
And it always backfires cos when i realise the actual intention, it is too late.
And i am confused? Is it me to be blamed for not doubting them? Or them, for using me? Suddenly, the ones who used me are blameless. And i am to be blamed for being so ridiculous. Who in the world wont protect themselves first, you might say.
I jus want to say i am not that stupid to not know i have to protect myself.
I may be dumb, but i am a human too survival instincts.
But i dont go into a situation or place or anywhere with the urge to protect myself or cover my back. Why would i when i dont sense the danger? Just like i dont go and doubt that someone is using me or backstabbing me right? wouldn't it be damn tiring to be that way all the time?

but you can say that in the end, I am the one who suffers right?

but you know what, i rather suffers than to doubt everyone that comes into my life.
to give them the benefit of doubt makes life more beautiful.
and inter-relationships between people more meaningful.

you might not agree with me, but then again, i dont need you to agree with me.
because i highly doubt i would change.
if i changed, then i wont be the dumb xinyi that everybody knows right?
that would be more scary.

the reason why i blogged all this is for fun.
HAHAHA.
or the things i understand, i learnt, i chose not to learn.
i chose not to learn not cos I am too stubborn, or too proud, or too stupid to learn.
i chose not to cos I dont want to turn myself into someone I dont want to be in the first place, into someone i dislike in the first place, into someone i despise in the first place.
(this someone again refers to nobody in particular, more like refers to the characters in shows HAHA)
i chose not to because i rather not hurt anyone i love, cares and dear to my heart.
you may not treat me as your high priority or hold me dear, but i do.
i do, with genuine sincerity.
and hope that you do too (:

even if at the end of everything, i realise it does not work out in my way, and i admit i will feel hurt, upset, disappointed and everything, then so be it. i will just cry and sulk all the way. LOL. but i dont think i will regret anything, i DONT THINK SO LAH. HAHAHA.
or maybe i will.
after all , its human nature.

but i rather be who i am, then trying to be who i am not.
because life is too short for this all tiring things.
why bother hide when there isn't anything to hide.
why bother cover up when at the end of the day, it 's you who suffers.

unless you prove me wrong, or whoever proves me wrong, maybe i will change my opinion.
or actually not, cos i am kind of stubborn also.

despite the many times i complained or grumbled or cried over it.

you know when people say hey she/he is not perfect, you shouldnt blame him/her.
and i understand, cos nobody is anyway.
it's scary if someone is perfect perfect, you know.
but that " i am not perfect" should never be used to be an excuse, isnt it?
like i understand that in some areas, i am not perfect, still not perfect, but cos i know, i try to change that part, or i try to make sure i dont cause any hurt because of that imperfect.
but i am still not perfect, its just that i try to keep that to the minimum.
i dont blame anyone for not perfect, i just wonder whether that can be used as an excuse.
used as an excuse all the times.
its like a free ticket to get out of everything.
nobody is perfect, but that itself cannot be used as an excuse.
i am not perfect, so it's all right if i do illegal stuff, so i dont need to suffer the consequences?
it doesnt sound right, does it?

i blogged so much, for whatever reason i also dont know.
lol.
its just i have been thinking way too much these days.
esp after i worked.

i actually love the fact that i am dumb.
(:

2010-08-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

i got so many things in my mind.
so so so many.
but i find it hard to sort it out.
HAHA.

yesterday was pop's birthday. so we headed to celebrate!
HAPPY BELATED, pop (:
headed to KTV at Topone.
With my Inseparable TWIN(: who cut bangs!! And gt ribbon in her hair. And whom i love and adore. Faster go meet up again.
mad hilarious okay with pop and xj. Twin and i gt free entertainment. haha. the two are the most funniest people to go ktv with.

took xj car all the way to tanjong pagar.
soo goood, no need to take mrt.
haha.
KPOP SONGS! haha i need to get back to listening to them.

KOREAN FOOOOODD!
finally, my korean food that i crave. YAY(:

super full and top it with my DOUBLE CHOC FRAPPE.
damn long since i drank it.

was so tired last night when i reached home.
i just bathed and sleep.
but it was sooooooooooooo fun. i miss 222 so much:(
another gathering okay? which is my BDAY! (:

which reminds me i ought to post up a wish list.

but then there isnt much i want.
1. POLAROID! you know the fujifilm brand de. i think it's called. pleaseeeeeeeee.
2. SHOES. haha. size 7 please. heels.
3. perfume? lol.
4. BAGS(:
5. POOH BEAR STUFF. the itouch cover please. haha
6. anything you want to give me (:
7. your love and wishes, of cos (:

haha i make the font more obvious. LOL. for you all.

saturday was outing with claud.
orchard, chinatown, bugis.

the japanese meal for lunch was damn cheap.
and damn nice.
and CRYSTAL JADE! (:
my ha kao. or prawn dumpling?
and claud's xiao long bao.
and my very curry-like beef noodles.
haha.
and of cos the KOI GUY, CLAUD!
best thing of the day.

today was back to work again.
HECTIC! :(
all the iPhone 4 stuff.
and the mistake i made.
again.
booo.

so many things i wanted to blog in the morning.
but lazy to type it out now.

haha. shall type out when i feel less tired.

where is vannnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
haha.

when will my horoscope come true?
haha.
on my birthday?
my nails break:(
super sad.

i want to do my nails again.
but too short after it breaks.

best of all,
i want to sleep.
nights (:

2010-08-13T22:02:00.001+08:00

i got one thousand and one things to rant.
and its all cos of work.

why whywhy customers are so irritating annoying and got no manners at all.
were they being taught manners?
i highly doubt so.

i get scolded by customers on a daily basis.
like eating medicine.
lol.

i realised how stupid I was.
Did i really think that they will be nice?
or they wont push the blame to me?
did i really think that everyone will think like I do.
i forget that the world is such a realistic one
and that one should think for oneself first.
but then again, i dont think this is correct.
but then who am i to judge for other people.

i forget that when problems arise, most hurried to make sure they are covered and push the blame around to keep themselves safe.
i forget how naive and stupid i was before and make the same mistake again.

but then again,
do i really want to be like them?
no. i would never choose to be like them. i rather get blamed, get scolded, get sacked than to push the blame to someone. maybe its cos i have not been in that situation before. maybe.

i am glad that i am not like them.
I am glad that even though I might sound stupid, I am much more happier.

I am glad that I got the chance to learn before it is too late.
i ought to learn to be more careful.

i hate to take public transport at two timing, the bloody morning and the bloody evening.
damn packed.
people pushing pushing pushing.
as if you know if you push hard enough, the people will fold up into tiny pieces so that there is more space.
wait for next train pls.
then the people cant wait for others to get off the train first.
and they obviously think i am invisible cos i dont think they see me.
push push push.
i want a car!!!!

today is the suay-est day.
i thought i was alrdy unlucky, cant get any unluckier.
but i was wrong.

i kicked myself more than 6 times.
accidentally. my left leg kicked my right ankle more than 6 times today. now there is a cut. LOL u can laugh now.
i almost fall while walking back.
hello to the ultimate suayness okay.

is there anybody that unlucky or blur as me in this world?
booooo.

i need medicine, therapy, surgery, anything to cure this.
please. HAHA.

today sucks, thanks darls for being there! (:

so glad its finally friday.
finally can rest my overtaxed brain.
and everything.

i dont like horoscopes.
LOL.
never true.
nugget.
HAHAHA.

okay i feel happier.
much much happier.

hope sunday is coming soon! (:
meet-up finally! yay (:

love the coffee sold at my company.
damn strong.
LOL.
instant alert! (:

tired tired tired.

2010-08-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

i need to keep a journal.
of how many blur things i do.
everyday.

then i can publish it as a joke book.
HAHAHA.
stress relief for whoever wants it.

i got a very ugly bruise.
from vann house. cos i knocked into the doorknob.
haha blur incident again.

then glass door incident.
the bus incident.

the definition of blur.
is
me.

its not a comforting thought though.
lol.

ohhhh i love strawberry milk.
the one from dutch lady,
super love. (:

actually i like anything strawberry.
soap, sweet, chocolate, milk, tea.
haha.
lotion too.
its sweet.
and i like.
lol.

went for a impromptu meeting with buddy and vann.
woooh, finally a long chat and fun.
miss it.

work tmr again.
i dont hate it anymore, but it doesnt mean i love it.
HAHA.

i want to eat sushi.
got a craving for it.
salmon! (:

went for buddy birthday party last night at ecp.
its like we were a bit weird there.
hiding behind trees and stuff.
HAHA.
i am not the only weird one.
love seeing buddy after so long.
wheeee (:
and of cos jade too.
and minyi.

totally tired out yesterday.
cos we walked for damn longgggggggggggg
from area E to C.
rahhhh.
exercising before eating.

tmr will be a tiring day again. HAHA.

i dont really believe in horoscope.
those monthly horoscope, weekly horoscope, daily horoscope.
whats more believable is those traits of that particular horoscope.
like how i behave like a virgo would behave. but also not like how a virgo would behave.
i like to realise how virgo-ly i am. LOL.
its fun.

and then i hope my monthly horoscope come true.
HAHA.
at least for my birthday.
but i need a cute guy for the horoscope to come true.
better go find.
can they just drop a temp staff for me? new temp staff. guy.
HAHA.
not weird ones okay.
birthday wish.
lol

what am i talking about actually?
the usual blabber.

okay i need to work tmr.
tada (:

2010-08-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

celebrated qingg birthday.
ate dim sum (:
super yummy.
haha.

happy belated darling (:

went shopping ard.
i ammmmmmm so tempted by the cute shoes with bows.
(:
haha.

woke uppp soooooooo early today.
hahaha.
early breakfast.
dim sum again please! (:

ate at dian xiao er.
and the service sucks.
lol.
and the food wasnt nice also:(

went back to cotton on to buy the skirt i wanted.
haha.
and bought shoes for my dad.
cos i got my pay.
LOL.

was deciding what to ask from my parents for birthday gift.
and i want a necklace with diamond. LOL.
not big big one lah,
just a tiny one will do.
meaningful (:

birthday.
i haven even plan anything yet.
the only thing i do is to make sure xl and brown check in with me. HAHAHA.
and then make sure ak is coming on first day to pei me.
thanks dearies.

theme? dont feel like having.
doorgift? i want something special.
cake? pretty or delicious?
catering? how many people, what food, what drink, what what what.
guestbook? whowhowhowhowowho
my birthday dress? where where where where.

its less than a month away.
rahhhh.

i want my fairy godmother please.

not even in the mood to watch soccer.
its manu vs chelsea.
bpl starting soon but i got to work :(
okay no link.
haha.

got to go all the way to the east tmr.
EAST :(
ahaha.
for fun lah of cos.

but i sucks at directions.

i want to learn how to drive.
cos i hate taking public transport.
and i wonder whether i am invisible at times.
how on earth did u explain why people just squeeze onto me without giving me space to stand if they can see me?
do i have special powers that i dont know of?
maybe, LOLOL.

besides being bubbles from ppg, i have the power of being invisible when i dont want to. HAHAHA.
and then i got horribly terribly stepped on my big toe that morning when i was taking circle line to macpherson for work.
was so tired at first, couldnt really be alert.
and then MAJOR OUCH! alert at once. my caffeine for that day cos i was too late to drink any coffee. my mouth was alrdy half open to scold whoever that is. its a auntie.
my mouth closed back.
nugget.
pain okay.
my poor toe.

i got a big craving for kimchi.
lol.
big big one.
kimchi please.

tmr is a holiday! (:
but tuesday will come soon.
got to wake up early again.
boooooo.

i want
to
take
leave.

LOL.

i keep eating fast food when i go out.
so unhealthy and fattening.
but cant stop. LOL.

i so want to watch horror shows okay.
so long since i watch it with ak le.
hello, horror show reunion! (:

i am feeling really happy now suddenly.
which makes me think i got mood swings.
like the biggest rollercoaster in the world.

me.
needs.
sleep.
badly.

2010-08-07T13:12:00.001+08:00

finished inception yesterday.
it killed all my brain cells. HAHA.
its not a movie recommended after work.
because i keep wanting to sleep.

even though the effects of the movie are totally awesome.
but its a tad confusing, or maybe it's just me.
haha so please explain it to me.

i got scolded by 2 customers yesterday.
and it wasnt my fault.
HAHAHA.
dont worry i am not affected at all, i actually find it damn funny and annoyed at first.

i want to watch more movies please.
this two weeks of toy story, despicable me and inception make me feel so happy.
HAHAH.
i want salt please.
the movie. LOL
and some thrillers and horror shows please.

its been so long since i watch horror shows.
want to gain my courage back. HAHAHA.

i love looking at my nails all manicured and pedicured. LOL.
looks neat.
i like.

was talking to claud yesterday bout housework.
which of cos i sucks at it.
or dont know how to do at all.

oh my god, i am not going to get married.
HAHAHA.
think of all the housework and the cooking. hopeless.

must get a guy that knows all these.
or a maid.

or actually hire claudia to help out.
haha, not so exp though.

but then again, I can do, its just a matter of wanting to do it or not isnt it.
and cos i am lazy, i dont want. lol.

i have been complaining so much about work these days.
that i miss out the fact that i shouldnt complain so much cos it isnt really anything to complain.
like there are people who are more entitled to complain than i am.
so i shouldnt complain at all.
thanks to all these poor friends that hear me complain day in day out.
(: like i say, i got super mad nice friends that are so sweet.

i cant wait to meet ak and 222 again.
and laugh and joke and chat and have fun.

i got three days of free days.
today, sunday and monday.
wohoooo!!

how i hope tuesday is also a offday.
should have taken leave.
oh well, got to clear my work i guess.

my speed is not bad le i guess.
HAHA i am proud of myself.
not bad not bad.

got to go out later.
i have been going out everyday.
work, movie, catching up.
busy beeeeee.

i like though, meeting up with friends everyday. lovely (:
laughing like mad.

happyhappyhappyhappy.

i feel kinda sucky when i see all my friends going off to school.
its not them, its me you know.
but then again, i understand that this is my choice, this is what i want.
to get what i want, i must persevere on.
i cannot be indecisive or regretful anymore. i am not regretful of the choice.
i am just feeling alone because they all going school. but then again, it's something they like and want. and i am happy for them.

i just cant wait to get back to study you know.
the irony.
when you work, you desperately want to get back to school.
when you study, you wish to work.
hahaha.
life.

yesterday, my colleague told me she hope i will work for longer periods. and not leave so soon.
haha i believe cos its hard to repeat all the things again from the start and to having to train another temp.
esp when they met me. LOL. cos i am just a bit hard to train. a bit only hoh.

saying all this out makes me happy.
lol.
tadadada (:

2010-08-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

like i say, people i know are weird. except ak and 222.
lol and some others lah.

i obviously has a please feel free to talk to me in whatever ways you like
cos people i know for less than 2 days talk to me in the same manner xj or pop talks to me.
exactly the same way.
makes me wonder why. do i just give off the feeling? haha.

i couldnt express how i really feel.
because i was not good with words.
feelings i feel damn strongly about,
turns into nothing when i talk of it.
makes me feel like i am making a big hill over nothing.
and i dont like it.

maybe thats the reason why i dont like to speak of my problems, my sadness and my worries.
cos i dont know how to express it clearly, and i dont want to make it sound like i am creating problems for the sake of creating. i dont want to do any injustice to my problems, worries.

most of all, i dont want to spoil anyone's moods along with it.

but you know that feeling is very suffocating.
and many times, i feel like i am going to explode.

and then i always get my hopes up high,
and then watch it all destroyed
and i get more upset.

and then the cycle repeats again and again.

2010-08-04T23:01:00.002+08:00

i keep laughing to myself during work.
lol. pretty much like an idiot.

i got super duper mad nice friends.
friends who dont mind going the extra miles, literally, just for me.
I LOVE YOU ALL BERIBERI MUCH (:
thanks darlings, with you all, who needs guy? definitely not me.
(:
next time, you know who you can find, me! (:

i went back to work, coughing like mad.
i probably scared my colleagues off.
HAHA.
i was fast somehow. HAHAHA.

please send a temp staff for me. for me to be able to talk.
all cos i didnt talk at work, i couldnt stop talking when i meet up with friends on weekends, or for lunch.
HAHAHA.
verbal vomit.

i want chicken soup.
you know, they always got this scenario whereby the boyfriend will bring chicken soup.
HAHA.
i also want leh.
not porridge, totally sick of it. i want chicken soup.
from a guy.
HAHA.

i am damn tired.
LOL.
shall go to sleep.

i want to eat loads of junk food.
but i cant huh. :(

boo. i hate being sick.
chicken soup!

2010-08-01T20:08:00.001+08:00

I am sick again!
Its the second time i am sick ever since i work. This time with a painful sorethroat. And flu.
And tmr is start of work again.
Sian.

Despicable me was damn fun!
Even though seats suck, 930pm at gv yishun with sucky seats all cos i tot there wont be many people watching it. And then cineleisure cathay was totally sold out. Major depression.

I love love agnes!! She is sooooooooo adorable! And i said that everytime she came on the screen.
It's so fluffy, i'm gonna die!!
Lol.

Should i go see a doctor again? Cos i cant talk at all. How am i going to work if i cant talk?! Disaster.

I realised i am exactly the kind of person who tries and then forget about it if it doesnt work out. Like too damn easy.

Wonder if its good or not.

Oh i have super wonderful friends, van, claud and qing who came to eat lunch and chat with me.i love you all soooooooooooo much! (:

I work in macpherson so its far. Haha.

I cant wait til my birthday! Suddenly i feel so excited.

You cant say i didnt try. You cant say i didnt give u a chance.

2010-07-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

oh man
i am the idiot.

almost threw the staff pass away when all i want to throw was my tissue.
damn funny.
couldnt help it but laugh to myself.
haha like some mad person.

i forget to bring my pass to the toilet also.
lol locked out of the office.
haha.

at first, i thought today would be one hectic day, cos of iPhones.

but apparently not, in fact today was the first day i went home so early.
HAHA.
so apparently all those people who usually bombard us with emails were actually queueing up for the phone.
NO WONDER.

customer service is really a sucky job.
some of the customers make me want to laugh so much, i couldnt keep it in.
keep laughing to myself in the office.
some of the customers are so annoying, i wonder whats wrong with them.
HAHAHA.

actually, i realise the work is kinda boring.
or maybe cos there isnt very rare cases.
so basically i just copy and paste the same thing like so many times.

the most scary part is the answering call part.
cos i dont know how to answer.
HAHA.

lucky part is i know how to so many things alrdy.
if not, i think i will die.

i cant wait to watch despicable me.
to forget about work.

okay i have a lot of things in my mind right now.
dont know how to phrase it.

tiredddddddddddd.

2010-07-28T22:44:00.001+08:00

work
work work
work work
work.

its all i can think of right now.

should be like that for a few months to come.
haha.

i need a ak gathering.
a 222 gathering.

faster.
quick.

tadadada.

2010-07-27T16:51:00.000+08:00

i almost cut my finger off.
while cutting apple.
stupid or stupid.

i am sick:(((((
flu bug bite me.

okay i am super irritated too.
whats wrong with me, why am i so suay.
i met weird people ard.

i already slept a lot.
and now i am going to go sleep more.

i should have know that i am never this lucky before.
nugget.

2010-07-26T20:30:00.002+08:00

i am alive.
lol.

though tired.

i cant wait till weekend where i can go into deep state sleep again.
i am coffee deprived, sleep deprived, friends deprived, everything deprived.

i still want despicable me
inception,
rapunzel.

i haven watch eclipse yet :((((
cos nobody want to watch it.

did i mentioned i watch TOY STORY 3.
haha damn funny. the spanish part.
LOLOL.

i like stupidly childish cartoons.

make me stupidly childishly happy.
LOL.

yay (:

paintball,
my birthday,
please come faster.

the world has become smaller.
LOL.
why is everyone connected to everyone.
so weird.

2010-07-25T13:10:00.002+08:00

I need a PAAAAAAAAAAAA.
haha.

i am dreading the time when i have to make decisions on cake and catering stuff.
and the decorations stuff which i have completely no idea.
and what about the theme.

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
how did my friends manage to settle all this.
LOL.

i actually dreamt of my work last night.
to be more precise,
all the starhub promotions i am supposed to rmb.
HAHAH.
home hubbing pack.
port in,
all stuff.

welcome to my weird world.
haha.

i am becoming a weird person.

it was more like a nightmare right actually.
but that shows how hardworking and focus i am.
never been this focused before okay.

the idea of having to do it all alone is making me focus.
HAHA.

paintball! (:
cant wait.
though i am scared of the big ugly bruise.

LADADA.

2010-07-17T14:13:00.003+08:00

a few hours to xl birthday bash! (:
cant wait (:

so many birthdays.
so little time.
LOL.

so many tuitions,
so little time.
LOL.

wherrrrrrrrre is the paintball (:
lol.

i got nothing new to weaaaaaaaarrrrrrrr.
ahhhhhhhhhhh.

got to go ransack my wardrobe.

on a side note, i packed my wardrobe,
and its extremely neat now
HAPPY (:

okay off to find some top.
(:

2010-07-15T11:33:00.000+08:00

this picture was supposed to move. I saw this on a website and its damn cuteeeeeeeeeee. haha.

my fave activity: do my nails. lol.

the MANU lanyard qingg bought for me in UK (:

and of cos we are back tooooooooogetherrrrr (:

its such a beauuuuuuuuuutiful month (:

2010-07-12T00:53:00.001+08:00

I am up and about at this hour. Cos of spain!!! Haha go go spain! (: yes, soccer of cos. Came back frm huimin 21st party. So many parties! And its super fun(:
Glad glad that ak is finally back tgt, and so many photos. I know its still long to my bday but still it wouldnt hurt to write a birthday present wishlist now right haha

Hmmmm, first the most impt thing i want and its a must is your love and presence(:

1. The polaroid cam frm fujifilm! Haha even though xl and qing both have it.

2. Soccer jersey. Beckham, manu, england? Lol i think its cute.

3. Shoes?? Haha i never can have enough shoes.

4. Pooh stuff? I want a pooh bear itouch cover even though i alrdy have 3 covers. Pooh bear cover!! Please dont buy pooh bear as in soft toys unless its a big one. I gt too many small ones.

5. Actually if its ur present to me, i will love it. So no worries(:

Still got one and half hr to go! (:

2010-07-02T20:24:00.002+08:00

this is my fave idol group right now.
2AM! (:

i super love Seulong.and and JO KWON! (:

Ga In and Jo Kwon are damn cute couple.
wheeeee.
super love them.
haha..
stuck in the couple fantasy again.

wakakaka.
okay byeeee.

2010-06-29T07:50:00.001+08:00

I am jobless again. Long story:( :( :( sucks sucks.

2010-06-28T20:31:00.001+08:00

My training becomes a lecture session just that there is only one student. Me. My work becomes studying. Having to memorise 7 antibiotics, zmax, klacid, distaclor, augmentin, amoxycillin, erythromycin, zithromax and how to prepare antibiotics, knowing how to do ECG, learning all med code, i feel like a doctor. Lol or a nurse. Am i schooling or studying??!!

But it was quite fun actually, cant wait to actually start doing hands on. (:

My memory was taxed to the max today. In fact all my brain cells died.
One hr bus ride to my work place is the worst thing. Lucky only for this week.

I am familar with hougang alrdy lah. Lol.

Cant wait for brown birthday! (:
CHALET!!!(:

Actually i think my work is interesting. Lol.

Lalala.
Not very tired actually. Wakakaka.

2010-06-28T13:19:00.001+08:00

I am so glad that claud and kris are watching family outting cos there is nobody to discuss with me! Haha. And since i watched it like 6 times for every ep. I knw it by heart lol. Go watch. Its so freaking funny.

My poor england! I am sad:( :( :(

2010-06-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

Korea lost!:( boo. England go go go! i am going to go mia soon cos i am starting work tmr. Ahh moolah come come!

It's so hard trying to put my feelings into words. I dont knw hw to describe it. I dont knw hw to cure it too. So it shall be forgotten or hidden.

Work work work! (:

2010-06-26T14:45:00.003+08:00

what makes everyday really happy is hanging out with the lovely friends i have. isnt it?
HAHA.
and constantly talking nonsense.
its such a small mutane thing but it feel so lovely.

WAKAKA (:

soccer matches are getting HOTTER.
not talking about you, vann please.
LOL.

i got to start work soon, like next week.
please come and have lunch with me. LOL.
whoever is looking at this.
HAHA.

cant wait for the ak birthday gatherings.
all in july.
wohoo.

i am feeling super bored.
LOL.
lalalala (:

my mood change super fast right?
(:

i pride myself for that. LOL.

thanks twinnnnnnnn i love you.
and the divanessa. (:

2010-06-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

its been long since i felt so upset.
and angry.
very angry indeed.

what have i really done to deserve this.
except for being stupidly stupid and mad.

and my eyes are blind.
real blind.
to only see the truth after so long.

no wonder they say i am dumb.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

but i couldnt, could i?
if i can, i wouldnt have to go through this isnt it.
such an irony.

its so fake that i could not stand it, its so fake that i could not fight the urge to roll my eyes, its so fake that i wish i could tear down the mask.

and i hate disliking people.
i hate realising things i am too blind to realise before that.
i so want to be able to forgive.
yet everytime i want to do that, or i did that, something pops up again to change my mind.

i am not a nice person, i am a stupid person.

i always thought i wouldnt be that dumb right.
but i prove myself wrong.

and the thing is i couldnt tell anyone.
cos to anyone, it isnt that obvious.
and if i say, i sound like a big ultra bitch.

but i wish i could say it out loud.
i wish i could say you make me feel real terrible, you make me feel so hurt, you make me feeel so used and betrayed.
you make me wish i never know you before.

i hate disliking people.
i hate feeling so stupid and ask myself why i didnt realise it.
i hate not being able to forgive.
and yet everytime i want to do that, something must pop up to change my mind.

it isnt nice, it is stupidity.
i arent nice, i am stupid.

i wish i can say, HEY, YOU KNOW I HATE IT.
i hate the way you treat me.

can i tell anyone?
no i cant.
:(

2010-06-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

currently waiting for tuition to start.
shall blogged a little. since they said i was MIA.

my sister. we are sooooooooooo similar. by always falling down, hurting here and there. being so clumsy and ridiculously suay when it comes to knocks and bruises. she sprained her ankle in school, when she just reached school. her cca had not even started. i couldnt stop laughing when she sat in the wheelchair. i know i am evil. but its just damn funny. HAHHA. she has such a nice sister like me. lol.

i bought this while returning home just now. reason being i got the urge to smell like a strawberry. okay, i just feel like using it. and its strawberry scented why not?

i got sick and tired of my old ipod nano being so stupidly

slow and insensitive that i banished it to my sister and bought a new ipod touch. currently the most fave thing in my life. my handphone is already old news.

because vann said i dont clean up, i shall show that i do. i super like this part of my room. cos its the neatest of all. my wardrobe is a mess, big big mess that i have yet to clean and my mum had given up all hopes for the miracle to happen. i like seeing all the bottles neatly standing up, i hate it when bottles are lying down. call it OCD. (: my bed is also very neat but thats not my hard work. thats my mum's. (:

i super like this photo. i dont know why. HAHA its cute (: and it has my favourite people inside. (: hello ak!

i went to this PA chalet at Pasir Ris a few weeks back, or last month, couldnt rmb. and and ITS FREAKING FAR! everytime i need to go to downtown east, i took a car there. SEE HOW FAR IT IS. and the TV is soooooooooooooooooo small. RAHH. i might be small size but doesnt mean i dont need big tv okay. it feels like a old old old hdb flat that is going to break down.

bedroom was only slightly better. SLIGHTLY.

i made this for vann for her bday. and i know SHE LOVES IT! (: HAHAHHA. she said my ART improve (:

and last of all, because vann put this in my phone, she obviously wants me to show it to everyone isnt it. HAHA. this is my 8 years bestfriend, who never stop grumbling how stupid, slow, crazy, and everything bad I am. who behaves like 12 instead of 21. kris asked me, " Are you sure you two are best friends?" but then we are still bestfriends, a very unique combo though. LOL. bestfriend, i love you. (:

and happy belated birthday to nat

and happy birthday to my twin, kris.

thanks for inviting.

and i love you two many many(:

the sleepover was fun yesterday night.

sidenote:

and once again i proved to not only me, but vann what a idiot I am.

no surprise, cos i am just that stupidly stupid.

you think i ought to rmb all the punishments and the anger and the disappointment i suffered.

but i dont.

please send me for a personality change, anyone?

while at it, please make me taller by 10 cm more.

i always say this is the last time.

but the sad thing is I have a big trouble of trying to make it last time. cos i am just like that.

Its so hard to say NO to people. well, most people i know.

there are some or a few where i wont hesitate to say no. LOL.

whywhywhywhywhywhy.

i really want to go and live in a cave at times.

in that case, i will be with myself only right.

ahh shucks, there is no soccer though.

world cup keeps me soooooooo busy.

730pm, 10pm, 230 am.

i slept at close to 430am every single day.

and wake up all tired and groggy after that.

need to start work soon though.

SHIT.

and i am glad that FRANCE lost.

i never forgive them for beating my ENGLAND four years ago.

never ever ever ever.

RAHH.

off to tutor maths again.

see ya peopleeeeeeeeeee (:

2010-06-07T11:54:00.001+08:00

i am not mia-ing.
well not really. lol. just lazy. haha.

vann's birthday was overrrrrr.
it was fun and crazy.
lol.
i super love the stayover.
and realised its the first time ak get to stayover tgt in a chalet.
well not really ak tgt, since qingg and xl were not back yet.
i miss them loads :(
come back lah. lol.

i hope you enjoyed it vann.
and the presents (:

so many birthdays coming up.
and hence the urge to find a job.
HAHA.

tuition jobs are not enough to compensate for the lack of money.
LOL.
job please.

on the other note,
if only i have the courage to say no.
but of cos i dont have.
quite obvious isnt it.
despite getting so pissed over it, so angry, so irritated, so upset over so many things,
i still dont get the courage.
i am an idiot.

the feeling is.
when you treat someone with your whole heart, treat someone nice and good, and as a good friend,
and then realised that someone doesnt treat you the same way, not as a friend, making you feel inferior, putting you down, exposing what you are upset about to everyone, hurting your feelings and doesnt care at all.
and it doesnt apply to everyone, just to me.
i wonder, am i really that bad or that worthless.

it feels betrayed, very.
and then you only get to be upset over it alone, on your own. and wondering what in the world you do that offended that person, is it something you do, or say.
but you dont really get a answer.

and i know that it isnt worth getting upset over.
but i cant stop it you know.

it isnt easy to follow what you preach.

sounds stupid isnt it.
how naive and foolish and stupid.
and how you only get to see one's true colour after so long.
its too late, i think. cos i have given all out.

i am bigger than this whole shit, am i?
i hope i am. :(
thats the only way.

okay enough ridiculous ranting.
i got to go for an interview later.
am damn tired.
see ya people soon (:

I'M BACK! (:

2010-05-07T11:40:00.000+08:00

hello people!

LOL i am back after being mia for almost half a year.

YOHOOOO! (:

for some reason, my msn dont work. i wonder is it cos i forget my password.

like when i wanted to log in to blogger.

have to think very hard for the password.

so many things has happen ever since i last blogged which is last year.

i switched my love for ss501 to lee hyori already.

so no more ss501 ( my poor cds though, MONEY! :( )

and family outting.

watched so many times that i can rmb what happened in each ep clearly.

LOL.

send MY PANDA off to UK in jan.

faster come back ah qinggg.

miss you :(

and ritty went to Sweden? Switzerland? i always forget which is it.

heard he is having loads of fun. NUGGET.

then cny came.

and its extremely boring okay.

i either fell asleep everytime i go someone house,

or ended up playing with cousins that are around my sis age.

and even younger, 5.

lol

before that,

WE HAD 222 STEAMBOAT! (:

and it was as usual fun, Fun, FUN!

and i realised everyone was in the KOREAN mood.

lol.

seriously.

my whole ipod and phone are korean songs.

dont ask me about new english and chinese songs, i dont know what happened there already.

and i love KARA.

and 2 NE1.

so nice, so pretty.

was watching korean shows too on my cable tv. i got both starhub and singtel mio tv. BECAUSE starhub go and lost the rights to broadcast Barcalays premier league. NUGGET. and because i cant bear to part with my CSIs and of cos my KBS WORLD which shows music bank! and so i watched SNSD every friday when they promoted OH! and RDR and now LEE HYORI!

Chitty chitty bang bang and i'm back are my fave songs! (:

and then hopefully big bang. and oh watched KARA too. (:

anyway steamboat and then sang at Top 1

went for yihlin's 21st bday party.

and really we, as in vann and me, were really paranoid. wondering and worrying what to wear. too formal or too casual.

and it turned out we were both wrong.

and then to natasha 21st, not that worried anymore.

HAHA.

seriously i cant rmb all the things that happen.

hmm.

ate prata with huimin brown and vann at the prata house at night.

that was recent.

after that was going to fish and co. to celebrate xj bday.

that was april 2.

sitting at ben and jerry's to chat/stone/eat.

all my tuition kids are currently having exams. ( i called them kids because they are like 6 or more years younger than me. the youngest iis 10 years younger. LOL.)

which means my time is stretched to the max.

three tuitions a day.

though money are made, which makes it quite bearable.

besides they are quite well behaved. not like the one i taught last time. i had to clamp my legs onto the chair to prevent him from moving around. i quit after the first month. cos i was shouting and getting angry for every lesson, and the whole lesson.

200 bucks for me to get so pissed, probably killing my health, so not worth it.

lol.

so i am glad to have these tuition kids even though i might complain.

korean cds are so exp.

i understand why but still very exp

my prized possession. (:

finally finished exams yesterday.

if only every exam is open book. that would be the best.

so long since i wrote essays.

long, a few pages essay.

here comes shopping, kbox, play, swimming and eveything nice.

hello people please meet up with me.

lol.

i got 2 new family members. MEET BEARBEAR, the pooh bear in giraffe suit( how apt, i am giraffe!) and CARE BEAR, THE GREEN ONE CALLED Do-your-best i think, HAHA. have you all met the big pooh bear yet? lol i cant rmb whether i intro it to you all already. anyway, say HI!

they look like family. the big pooh bear is the daddy bear to the pooh in giraffe suit. the green care bear is the mummy bear to the purple care bear. and again, i cant rmb whether i intro that care bear already, called sweet-dreams. and no, they are 2 separate families. LOL. super cute i think.

my cousin. the youngest one of the pack. cute right? both i mean. LOL. and the banana she is carrying. she told me it was hers, she brought it there. only when she was leaving, then i realised she lied to me. lol.

rmb this balloon? my bday balloon. it had deflated and now beyond recognition :(((( my bday is in 4 months time please people. (: i want pooh bear balloon.

alll right. blogged already.

tatas.

am going to rewatch ISWAK 2.

lol.

and do my cross stitch.

see ya real soon. (:

2009-12-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

i am so into ss501 right now.
like their super fan.
HAHA.

and i super love the song deja-vu.
so shall share it with you people yay!
three of my fave songs.

i did some window shopping after the exams.
and oh man, my legs hurt.
old bonesssssssss.

went for bbq and cycling.
i couldnt move my legs after that.
AHAHAH.

let's PICNIC! (:
with ak tmr. woot love(:

tuition please start soon
am broke.

ahhh i love kim hyun joong and park jungmin(:

i haven watch twilight yet,
cos everybody or friends of mine all watch it alrdy and i ended up with no one to watch with. :(
BOO.
twin, ROBERT PATTISON! (:

i dont want school to start. neither do i want to choose my modules again.
its. damn. Troublesome.
rahhh.

tata. (:

2009-12-03T10:50:00.002+08:00

helllo! (:
its like more than a month since i blogged.
or online.

my laptop collecting dust le.
same goes for my facebook, blog msn.

finally.
my dooms day ended.
it will come again when the results are out.
shit.
:(

anywayyyyyyyyyyy,
i am up for many many activities.
shopping, tanning, picnic-ing, singing, even bitch-ing. LOL.

i just want to playyyyyyyy.
lol.

hello, people lets meet up! (:

i am so super out of contact with the world.

lalalalala.

ohh i am supposed to post something i was damn angry at actually.

which happen like a month ago.
rahhhhhhhhhhhh.
it goes like this:

I DONT MIND DOING WORK. i dont.
what i mind is people taking it for granted.
everything, oh xinyi do.
i got a lot of time?
i got 48 hours a day?
might as well just write my name only.

actually its just a person i am irritated at.
and still irritated.
oh god, got to be the worst one i ever seen.
you know good looks doesnt get you anywhere. it doesnt makes me less angry and stuff.
shit.
chey, and i thought wrongly again.
shucks.

rahhhhhhhh. what kind of weird person is that.
what kind of weird and totally worst person is that.

nahget.

oh shit i am late. (:

2009-10-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

watching the WE GOT MARRIED!
twin, we can discuss it tgt!

its damn freaking funny.
i had never laughed this much before.
really non stop.
LOLOL.. damn cute la hyunjoong. WAHHH (:
i super love hwangbo. she knows everything, superwoman, superwife. super pretty and nice (:
i love her!
they so sweeeeet.

super funny, please go watch, if you want to laugh like mad.
my jaws hurt after laughing so much.
lalalala.

got to fix my project.
LOL.
my conclusion and abstract. pleassssssseee one shot, get it done. LOL.

tatas.
WGM! (:

2009-10-28T00:08:00.001+08:00

there is a time to do some things.
there is a time not to do some things.
and we never realise it until, well until its too late and nothing can change the fact that you did something.

so the main point is to realise it first before doing it.
to think before you even do something.
for yourself and for others.

i think one of the best way in life is to stay rooted to the ground.
like firmly rooted to the ground.
to rmb that while you succeed, you also retain the humbleness.
dont be like balloon, got a bit of wind, fly until dont know where.
LOL.

okay i am rambling on with absolutely no idea what i am talking about.
its okay if you dont understand, i dont understand too.
LOL.

i found one lab report! wohoo. i feel so proud of myself and i know VANN LOVES ME NOW A LOT A LOT.

exams exams!
i so desperately need a guardian to make sure i study instead of sleeping.

tired.
tuition lesson everyday,
triple the tiredness.
maths . is . irritating.
i hate it now.

tatas(:

2009-10-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

ahhhh
my notes are piling up like mountains.
and i have yet to tackle it.

as i was reading my cyber security notes.
i feel this black cloud floating over my head.
rahhhh.
what the hell is my notes talking about.
i am so dead.

less than a month to exams.
so not prepared at all.
shit.

got to start bucking up.

motivation.
i need motivation! RAHHH.

went kbox with my sis last weeek, or was it last last?
it was fun (:
go again!

got to finish up my project.
got to study.

time,
i need time.

i super like the lyrics of that's when i love you by aslyn.
very sweet, very real.
okay random.

tatas. (:

2009-10-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

i cant feel my legs anymore.
LOL.

swimming yesterday.
jogging just now.
walking around.
rahh.
my knees hurt big time.
my muscles hurt big time.

i feel my fats burning LOL.
so satisfactory lo.
HAHA.

i so need to do exercise more.
haha.
nat! lets go!
lol.

2009-10-16T22:46:00.001+08:00

i am sooooo freaking tired.
i swear i am really getting old.
i could watch soccer at 3am in the past and still wake up early to go to work or school.
now, just one early morning watching, my whole body cant accept it anymore.
like what nat says, OLD BONES AH.
lol.

i realise
only people who really gone through the same thing understand what it feel.
as in really understand.
like how i feel upset when i saw people upset cos of something i had been upset before.
weird huh.

i just dont know how to describe this feeling.

cafe world is damn fun! (:

2009-10-16T00:01:00.002+08:00

i hurt my back again. RAHHH.
i am so clumsy until i hate myself for it seriously.
ass.

now i have trouble sitting, standing and sleeping.
very very wonderful.

okay i am not very happy now.
boo.

though i had a wonderful day today (:

i am the most stupid person in the world.

2009-10-11T20:24:00.003+08:00

this is a very funny picture! HAHA. look at my lovely sis.
i am nice alrdy, i didnt put on facebook and tag her fifty times.
cute right?
we were doing the cross eyed and rolls eyes thingy.
see who is the best.
i win hands down for the cross eyed one.
HAHAHA.

i need to do my project by this week.
damn.
lit review! i got no idea on how to do.
LOL.
dead.

2009-10-08T13:53:00.002+08:00

i found this picture on google.
and then i get the craving for gummies.
immediately.
stupid.

but i like the colours! so nice(:

i shouldnt be online,
i should be studying.
RAHH!
(:
okay back back back to mug.

i want to eat fishballs.

2009-10-07T18:40:00.001+08:00

i changed my blogskin cos its boring.
and i post some stupid photos cos i am bored. LOL.

i bought a mouse recently, and i super love it cos its small and hence cute. LOL. it looks a bit like ice cream actually. HAHHA

and then i bought a mouse pad. cos using on a book is so uncomfortable. and its MANU! haha i am the super fan(:

and they are now a couple. LOL. till death do them apart. or in their case, until their owner spoil them.

my favourite drink! i super love this cos there is cranberry. i love all the different berries. lol. i am a healthy lady. (:

and i am really bored.

quite obvious, no?

shall go mug mug mug then.

cheerios(:

i want to go swimming, or tanning to be exact.

2009-10-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

i am currently waiting for dooms.

lol. okay not exactly.

vann says my veggie is fat

BOO, vann. just a little bit okay.

rahhrahhrahh.

haha.

i am very tired.

cant open my eyes.

i love the photos from holland v, so nice

it feels very retro leh. (:

models in the making! (:

gangsters in the making! LOL

SCANDALOUS! (vann and nat.) lol.

thats the happy me after so many lovely outtings.

HAHA.

next stop: lets go beach picnic okay, girls? HAHA i want picnic.

i like the feeling of having a veggie.

make things more interesting, love days like these.

LOL.

lalalalala.

I love EGG YOLK MOONCAKES, twin!

haha.

2009-10-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

i wanted to change my blogskin,
but was distracted by nat's uploading of photos.
wheeee, happy.
the zoo photos are uploaded by nat (:

i always come back from tuition, angry and yet feel bad.
such ironic feelings.

i dont really like mooncakes.
except maybe for the ones with egg yolk.
dont know why.

went major retail therapy in terms of my eyes only.
my legs are now sore.
but satisfactory.

my one bloody recess week just pass like that.
i dont know where my time pass to.
its the bug again. boo

i am going to tag them in the photos.
lol. bored.

2009-09-25T19:17:00.001+08:00

my recess week is here, like finally.
and i got quizes coming up.
and i got project to do.

and i dont know why i can turn quiet so immediately.
like hello, i am supposed to be miss chattybox leh.
okay maybe not that extreme, but i am supposed to be able to talk and go on and on.
and not like that.
shucks.

rahhrahhrahh.

on wednesday, meaning two days ago,
we went to celebrate claudiaaaaaaaaa's birthday(:
at one cafe at holland v.
and it was very very homey and cute.

had this salsa dory but it WASNT SPICY AT ALL.
nugggget.
but like claud say, cranberry lustre is really nice.
(: thumbs up.

waited for ritty to come by so that we can cut cake.
haha got 2 cheesecakes!
one made by claud and i know vann would say i ate her share of cheesecake. i couldnt help it LOL.

we practically talked and laughed throughout.
claud got sore throat after that.
haha.
it was simply very very fun(:
the best gathering. of cos there are many best gatherings. HAHA.

xl return back to uk le.
FASTER COME BACK AGAIN.
we need our regular meetings ! (:

on the taxi, i talked about learning driving with claud. cos we took cab home from holland v. with nat,
i realised why i dont feel excited to go learn driving,
cos i dont trust myself at all to drive.
and i think nobody will let me drive them.
LOL.
i will probably
a. get lost, cos i have bad direction sense, actually i should say i got no direction sense. nobody will ever ask me for directions. haha. try your luck ah if u ask.

b. i will knock into something. i am prone to falling down, banging into something, knocking into things. haha.

i was reading my past note.
then i saw what i written. " I can stare at the blank wall for manymany hours."
i LOLed major.

need need to study.

walalalala.
i am tired but happy.

2009-09-24T13:15:00.000+08:00

i am damn damn pissed!
what the hell.
i hate it when people change my plans and my time.
without asking first.
like fuck, you dont respect me as a human.
i dont respect you either.

its an employee, not a slave.
its working, not being ordered around.

why do i always this ass problem.
why why why.
i freaking hate people who are irresponsible, who assumes that i will be free everyday, waiting.
you fit into my timing, not the other around okay.

ass.

2009-09-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

this is very very nice.
no wonder she win(: woots taylor swift.

2009-09-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

i am in a mood to upload photos.
haha.
for more specific photos, please refer to kris when she update, for the zoo i mean(:

zoo outting aka my birthday celebration:

that was my twin's and my favourite ice cream. and it is non-drippy! (: haha.

they are the elephants. LOL

my birthday cupcakes! (:

like i say, for more photos, please proceed to kris journal when she updated. lol(:

xiangling house aka my birthday celebration too! :
the cake made by xl, can you feel her love for me? LOL (:

intended to cut the cake up into 6 pieces, but in the end we just took forks and dig in without cutting. reason? i cant cut the cake into 6 equal pieces, cos of the shape, and therefore i cant cut it and dont want it to be cut, LOL. (i can hear claud and kris saying OCD! HAHAHA.)

the people whom i love, adore and stuck with (: the 8 years already ak(:

the WEIRD BAND! (: lol.

without our drummer.

this is why we were at xl house. WII! (:

the girls who surprised me at my house on my actual birthday. thank you darlingssssssssss(:

this is the towel xl gave me. LOL my pooh bear. actually the reason i post this is I AM TALLER THAN QINGG, VANN and HM! MUAHAHA(:

this a random outting to minds cafe. AK loves MINDS CAFE! (: UGLY, UGLY, UGLY!
this is to show that qingg was very far behind during the game, the green colour marker. HAHA and then lose the game and got mole! (:

minds cafe-ing! without huanyi who was the organiser. she was sick. MUAHAHA(:

and that's all. LOL.

i bought a very cuteeeee mouse to replace my touchpad on my lappie.

and and and i am addicted to pet society. LOLOLOL.

damn fun okay.

and mooncake is here!

i love the egg yolk ones. the more egg yolks, the better. HAHA.

and i am waiting for guess guess guess.

and i am waiting to meet my 222 girls again! (:

okay till next time, out! (:

2009-09-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

okay my birthday.

last sunday
was a celebration with ak.

went to xl house. and viola! fun fun fun(:

totally love my ak loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

had fun with wii tennis, guitar hero and something to do with cooking.

lol.

and all the presents. (:

and the lovely heart shaped oreo cheese cake made by xl (:

and then two days ago, on a bright lovely sunday,

WE , half of 222, went to the zoo!

twin, blossom, claud, buttercup, pop and me! (:

and we saw many animals.

and i saw MY GIRAFFE! (:

wheee, so happy.

though it rained a bit.

but still, its very fun.

and the best part is they surprised me with twin and many cupcakes! (:

haha.

thanks peoooople.(:

and we watched the SPLASH! show.

the host was damn funny.

lol.

and then ended the day with kfc! (:

pop's present along with this...

which happens to add on to my family of my two animals lol.

and this too from pop

this is by twin (: its a pooh photo frame with self written diary and our trademark photo(:

from nat (: which i gave her 5 cent coin after she wanted a ten-cent coin. LOL. (: its a beauuuuuuuuutiful slippers.

and my birthday was spent extremely happily with people who care so much about me.

thanks(:

2009-09-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

i got the bug!
stomach bug i think.
boo:(
my stomach had been hurting since thursday, on and off.
ahhhhhhhhhh.

2009-09-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

vann gave this to me (: love her loads!!!!
its a lot of work and effort and i totally love it.

buddy gave this to me(: love you buddy.

buddies! (:

i got a lot of things i want to say.

but i dont really know how.

nvm.

anyway ITS MY DAY! (:

thanks so much to vann and xl. LOVE YOU ALL AH! (:

and to all those who wish me, you know you meant a great deal to me.

and the wishes too. (:

thanks for being my friends.

its this thought that makes us friends(:

2009-08-28T18:01:00.001+08:00

i am upset:(

and i need someone to be here you know?
i want a hug badly:(

it sucks to be feeling alone.
hate it.

i just want to be account to myself you know.
i just want to be myself.

yet many a times, i cant.

i dont know why i cant find what i want to find.
people, things, everything.

lost somewhere.

2009-08-27T15:57:00.000+08:00

i just realised my font is very small.
HAHA.
so i increased it.

and i am really tired.
that i slept past 10 this morning,
which is very rare nowadays, for me of cos.

got tuition later.
very very tiring.
rahhhhh.
must travel.
siannnnnnnnn

i wanted to write something about what i want.
but i couldnt think of any.
lol.

i want errmmm,
idontreallyknow.

haha.
nvm. i shall think more(:

2009-08-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

oh man
i got this bloody project to do.
and i barely know anyone.
haha.
okay two.
which is good enough
LOL

*ahem coughsmybdayiscomingcoughs ahem*

HAHA

oh twin did i tell you.
ang ku kueh got a new name called AKK!
thanks to vann.
she was like i got akk leh.
HAHAHA.
ANG KU KUEH AKK.
twin LOOK HERE!
lol(:

lol.
i feel like i am deprived of sleep.
lol.
damn tired la.

i want to eat sushi leh:(
eat with me please.
sakae
buffet.

2009-08-23T23:30:00.001+08:00

this is my ultimate fave!(: thanks sis. love you.

hooked to time traveller's wife.
its very.... special and sweet.

watched UP with ak(:
and its damn funny.
and i couldnt stop laughing throughout the whole movie.
haha.
very nice. the 3D glasses. LOL

switched to firefox. cos i like the design LOL.

study study
meetup meetup.
(:

2009-08-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i feel this way.
so long that i even forget how it feels.

the best part is i got no idea why i feel this way.
or maybe i do.
but that doesnt make it any lesser.

its these times where i retreat back to my shell, and then think about all the things.
and then it got worse and worse.
that feeling of worthlessness.
the feeling of that nagging thought.

and it cant be cured, only sleep i guess.
lol.

2009-08-16T21:46:00.001+08:00

oh the song "already gone" by kelly clarkson is really nice. very nice.
(:

epl starts okay since yesterday,
but today is manu's first match
so means today is the day(:

and i got something to rant about,
something to watch. YAY.

and twin, faster finish exams with nat,
so that we can meet up ah.
(:
loves.

and that blog shopping thing is super addictive.
at least to me.
boo:(

SOCCER!(:

we are currently waiting for my uncle to come home to cut cake.
LOL.
and very hungry and salivating.
haha.

and *ahemahem* i just realised my birthday is like in 2 weeks time.
so get ready your presents, your wishes. HAHAHA.
i really just happen to realised and got shocked.
(:
like time pass so fast this year.
but then everyone seems so busy.
which is....
weird.

i need to start studying soon.
haizzzzzzz.

2009-08-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

so being the start of school.
the first sem of the year.

i told myself i am going to study as much as hard as possible.

and then i keep doing stupid things.
like laughing for no reason at all.
giggling and laughing like mad.

i think its the strepsils, the alcohol in it.
have been sick these days,
flu, sore throat, a bit of cough.
viruses always attack me:(

so the strepsils make me extremely high.
i was talking in weird lang to my mum,
laughing and giggling at nothing.
walking around and round.
hopping around even.
and to think its not exams yet leh.
oh man

HAPPPY BELATED BDAY POP!
lol random.

tried my best to finish one chapter of my textbook,
to be prepared ma for lecture.
but i cant.
finish i mean, cant finish.
sian.

rmb i said i am never going to touch history again?
haha i forgot about that.
went to take history of china.
which is very coincidentally the same with what i learn in jc history.
and i threw my notes away leh.
SHIT.
any historians who haven threw away their notes?
lol i dont even know who will read this.
HAHA.
i presume my 222 history buddies, namely ritty, jh and beryl would have thrown it away.
bad memories ma, better threw away.
HAHA.
cannot forget my expression after finishing that bloody alevel history paper.
classic.

now to think back,
i couldnt rmb anything i have learned lo or memorised, seems to be a more suitable word.
what kashmir, what arab, what pakistan, what religious fundamentalism.
LOL
2 freaking years of trying so hard to cram so much in,
being so depressed and upset over the lack of results.
going mad and kee siao over it.
trying so hard to pon lectures, tutorials, asp
dont do hwk, play countdown during block test.
praying so damn hard, spotting qns,
and THEN!
BOOM! CANNOT RMB ANYTHING.
seriously wasting so much time.
but then ITS THE A'S.
right?

and then now, MUST START ALL OVER AGAIN.
oh my god now i wish i paid more attention to it that time.
i skipped the whole chapter on that i think in jc.
cos its just too much.
history notes, i need. Badly.

have been waking up early
like last time i would wake up at 11 or 12.
now i wake up at 8 plus.
see la, my habits become weirder.

i want my jc sleeping habits leh.
LOL

okay i got to start studying soon.
better now than never.
come on, motivate me.
LOL.

okay bye.
hey 222, meet up soon leh(:
loves.

2009-08-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

i forget to mention.

only until i read vann's blog.

the priceless expression of vann's when she was trying so hard to snap photos of fireworks

and then realising that she was too slow, and could only snap a black background with 3 dots of lights, which were the spot lights, or the far away lamps. imagine that picture.

LOLOL i laughed like shit.

HAHAHAHA

not once, not twice, but all the times.

except a few rare photos where she finally took the right ones.

worth getting bullied by her huh. HAHAHAHAH (:

went swimming.

my definition of swimming is so vague. LOLOL

not brown tan though.

dessert! sweet cravings.

and mac cravings.

my days are packed with tuitions.

many.

pri sch sec sch. ems.

ba ka liao.

and sometimes they get on my nerves.

and then i raised my voice or even kind of shout.

then i feel bad and guilty cos they are like kids, you know.

i mean obviously they dont know thats why they need tuition.

but not listening and not doing hmwk are irritating.

okay i know i did those before too

LOLOL

red and white.

wanted to paint my nails red and white.

cos it's national day,

but cant seem to find my red nail polish.

bummer.

i bought crystal stickers to jazz up my handphone (:

hahaha.

very nice.

i think i got this please bully me face, it's okay.

if not, how do you explain why the kids are simply not scared of me?

i raised my voice, i gave the sternest look i can muster. i gave the very annoyed look.

i used the very angry tone.

i even say, NO!!!!!!

bt still, shit happens.

RAHHHHH.

so it's not my fault.

i even said the most classic and cliche sentence: if you still dont listen to me, i will tell your mum and you will get it from her.

but it still failed.

nowadays kids not scared of their parents anymore?

or now situation change?

or is it cos only my parents are freaking strict and fierce?

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

that's bad.

on a bright note, i got my psychology module! (:

damn happy.

like finally.

okay nt only me has tuition issues. LOL

ate lunch with claud on wed.

woohoo.

love the steak at jack's place.

school is like starting soon.

and i am half-half.

dread and excited.

LOL.

okay till next time(:

many loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

happy birthday, Singapore.

2009-07-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

and again,

its been so long since i blogged.

and come online.

the last time i blogged was,

mid july. HAHA

okay didnt do much actually from then till now.

lazy enough to be stuck at home.

giving tuition,

and getting super irritated by the kids.

"kids" because they are so much younger, which makes me feel so olddddddddd.

not looking at the height of cos.

and it doesnt get any easier.

when i look at the so many topics.

at least i got enough materials for them to do.

which doesnt make me much better though.

got tongue tied most often than not.

went for national day rehearsal with vann last sat.

you know, i have never been an enthusiastic for national day parades, unlike vann and huimin.

sweaty weather, sooooo freakingmany people, walk for ages, and then going home with yetagainsomany people.

what can i say, i hate crowds.

but i didnt die of heat and crowds last sat,

so it was good.

and vann was super damn funny with her attempt of snapping shoots of fireworks.

and this was the first time i laugh during a national day parade, so must be good yeah?

celebrating xl birthday like finally yay(:

ohohoh i watched HARRY POTTER.

haha on the second day of the screening.

lol or was it the third?

and its wonderful, amazing and good.

HOHO i love harry potter, and hermione of cos(:

its been godknowshowmanyyears since i written chinese words.

and i have forgotten so many words, until my sister was laughing at me the night before.

time to read some chinese papers.

was stuck to the tv these couple of days.

even my handphone was sad because i left it there, uncared for, unloved, untouched.

and seriously not replying.

sorry claud dear:(

my brains dont work that good anymore.

ION orchard was like a maze.

so confusing.

so bad for directionless people, meaning me of cos.

and macs changed their chilli sauce back to the old orginal one which i love(:

okay, that is random i know.

but i like.

and i rewatched harry potter and goblet of fire just to see cedric diggory again(:

and i rewatched damn many shows.

and reread.

and slept for ages.

school is starting in like less than two weeks

and i am super not prepared yet.

i haven have enough fun yet.

lol.

okay i am off to rewatch more shows.

many love(:

2009-07-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

its beeen sooooooooo long that i blogged.
too long that i cant rmb what i did.
LOL.

trying to rmb.

there was brown birthday on sunday.
a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear(:
and it was damn fun.
haha.
brown looked super pwreeeeeety that day.
lolol.
very very HOT.

and her hair got a nice spa. EGGS! hahaha.

and watched obsessed.
its damn nice.
and i love beyonce.
her attitude rocks socks, man.
catfight!(:

then before that i was stuck at home for almost a week plus.
with tv.
haha.

went hunting for things yesterday.
shopping trip
with heavily blistered feet.
lol.
never wear heels shopping, stupid uncomfortable heels.
going to banish it into a corner in the storeroom.

got new tuition job too(:
money money come come.

i got too much tv to watch these few days.
getting addicted to the amazing race.
all the past seasons, so many!
lol.

harper's island finale is coming coming coming.
i cant wait to see who the stupid killer is.
lolol.

i think its ridiculous
that the more i think, the more angry i feel.
the more irritated i get, the more stupid i feel.
rahhh.

i really need my salt and vinegar chips leh. lol
anyone?
HAHA.

2009-06-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

i am HAPPY.
and LOVED.
(:

hahaha.

thank you twin, many many.

thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.
to many people.

i am cured i think.
after when i started to dance to cheng yao that played on my hp.
haha.

all kris fault ah, make me so addicted.
LOL.

i am hungry after these few days of sleeping.
(:

2009-06-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

ahhh.
i am plagued with viruses.
:(
sick sick sick.
right after i came back from chalet.

and i slept the days off since chalet.

i wonder whats wrong with me though:(
like no energy at all.

if i can, i want to sleep forever, as much as i want.
lol, not much thing to do.

i wish there is something to energize me up.
tired.
boo.
i'll leave details of chalet to kris(:

2009-06-15T18:47:00.001+08:00

woaaaaaaaah
i love harper's island.
just piffed that they didnt show the death of beth or katherine.
its too casually shown lo.
nugget.
make me so angry.
rahhh.
LOL.
i hope henry doesnt die leh.
i like him.
handsome!
and trish is real pretty.

i cant wait for the last episode to show.
i need to know who the killer is.
lol.

if there is one torturous thing on earth,
it have to be at the IT show with dont-know-how-many-people there.
i waited for freaking more than 2 hours there.
just for my sis handphone.
nugget.

freaking many people.
many rude people.
many iritating people.
gets on my nerves.
i even wanted to fall asleep while waiting.
and sit until my butt hurt.
LOL.

the whole plan about the chalet makes me laugh.
but i dont know why.
its not the content of the plan though.
LOL.
just very funny

free express manicure!
haha
so happy.
very very happy.
lol.
now my nails look presentable.
no more chipped nails.

was loitering ard amk
it didnt change though.
just this new nice very nice bubbletea shop.
haha
i like(:

chalet chalet chalet!
woot.
big big cant wait.

2009-06-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

watched boys over flowers.
and i have to admit my ex bf, jerry yan is way uglier than my new one, lee min ho.
LOLOLOL
and i totally laugh when kris reply me with the hua hua gongzhu.
damn funny.

just for kriS: ANG KU KUEH!
HAHAAH.

and yes the goon joon byo, the lee min ho
is very handsome.
and gonna be my new bf.
at least for as long as i like BOF.

i watched the whole series.
and want to learn korean.
LOL.

vann birthday was a success.
and i just cant believe it, you know.
cos i keep expecting her to know that there was a surprise for her.
that i was acting weird.
and i was really acting weird.
or at least to guess that it was a surprise.
but thanks to me, HOHO. she didnt expect it.
made it funnier and more sweet then.
for me la.
LOL.

the kbox was funny and high.
esp with all the high songs.
and nat and vann.

very very fun.

and then qingg bday was equally a success.
that was yesterday.
the "chest hair"
lol.
and the two surprises.
the balloons.
the song.
lol.
and the power failure.
LOLOL.

and miss xl is back in spore!!!!
till after my bday.
HAHA so happy.

chalet is less than a week ago.
and i cant wait.

the sensitivity is seriously lost.
i guess its all an act before.
i am just too blind to realise
to see clearly.

and too deaf to hear it clearly.

2009-06-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

i dont know how to describe the feeling.
ahhhhhh-

2009-06-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

ANG KU KUEH!
LOLOLOL
okay okay, later kris cannot stop laughing.
but still,
ANG KU KUEH!
HAHAAHAHA.

i just ate many milk chocolate and dark chocolate biscuits.
and its all vann fault.
she was the one that got me into buying.
LOLOL.
anyway its very nice very very nice.
very very nice.

more nice than
ANG KU KUEH.
lol.
oops.

i am into bbaby blues the comic book.
reserved a lot of the comic books.
i am practically reading the whole collection.
LOL
dmn funny
i love hammie(:
i am like super addicted.
omg.

i am so broke.
birthdays go away please!
LOL.

2009-06-01T23:13:00.001+08:00

i
am
back!
(:

chalet was fun
except for some shit and one fuckingly idiotic bitch,
and some ridiculous issues.
asshole.
RAHHHHH
and i am freaking pissed irritated pissified and annoyed.
and angry
nugget
wtf

and we went bowling.
and i was just this close to winning the game.
nugget lol.

ahh
was super duper tired yesterday
my brain was on off mode.
sleep, bathe sleeep
had a nasty headache last night
:((
head splitting.
slept super early.
and wake up late

window shopping.
dead tired.

broke.
got to stay home until everything is over.

i ate loads of mussels, crabs, mangosteens during the chalet.
hahaha.

twin, u are very funny.
lol.
i still dont know why is it funny. ANG KU KUEHS!
lol

i want to watch ghosts of girlfriends past
haha cos it sounds sweet.
and funny.

but but no money. LOL

tired.
tired
tired.

cant wait for so many things.
(:

2009-05-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

i am so bored.
so i went to look for new blogskin.
cos i have gotten tired of my previous one.

and i realised i dont want the colourful ones.
because i have gotten sick of the colours.
bright colours.

i want a black one
so i got this.

now i look at my wardrobe.
i dont like the colours.
now i prefer black and white.
LOL
its all vann's influences
haha.

anyway i am off tmr
for chalet.
wahahaha.

i got a craving for maggi mee.
LOL.

and kris find this funny: ang ku kuehs, ang ku kuehs, ang ku kuehs. HAHA
twin: angkukuehsangkukuehsangkukuehs.
angkukuehsangkukuehsangkukuehs.
HAHAHA.
looks like gibberish.

i so need to stock up my wardrobe with basics.
many.
and shoes
HAHHA.

2 mths of holidays left.
must start to think of something to do.

i watch coraline today.
its damn nice.
the storyline, the visual effects are totally awesome.
i love the girl, coraline by dakota fanning.
very superhero feeling.
woooo.
its really nice,
go watch if you like dark humor.
now i know why, buttons.
HAHA.

this half of year, i watch too many shows.
thats where my money went.
i cant even count.

new mooooooooooooonnn
i want.
(:

2009-05-28T11:52:00.005+08:00

i did too many things this holidays.
too many.
broke.

i went swimming,
i went watch a movie, angels and demons,
i went alexandra road to eat delicious food.
i went tampiness to go ikea and shop.
i went shopping.
more shopping.
library, more library.
museum.
thinking bloody hard for all the presents.
went to different places to buy.
then there are chalets.
and many birthdays to celebrate.
gatherings,
then trying to watch a lot of shows online.

quite eventful

angels and demons is disappointing.
people have to watch the show without reading.
cos if u have read before that, then you ended up trying to find all the differences between the book and the show.
and then get disappointed that they are not the same.
i mean even the reason why carmelango( i got no idea how to spell) killed the pope is different iin the book and movie.

maakes my movie watching so not happy.
doesnt do any justice to the book.

i think the da vinci code is better.
i like audrey tautou.
(:

harper's island oh my god is soooooooooooooooooo exciting.
i love the different ways the people are killed.
HAHAHA.
i love how gross the killings are.
esp the uncle marty,
lower half of the body sawed off while he is alive.
thats cool.
i cant wait to know who the killer is.
the only so not interesting way of killing is the setting on flames on lucy.
like huh, not gross de leh.
chey.

okay i am weird.

and bloody manu.
nugget.
played like its their first and only time playing.
and their last time playing.
assholes.
waste my time, and my sleep.
barca so deserved to win.

rahhh
thats so pissified.

the lovely food(:

i forget to take photos of the many ang ku kuehs i bought

aiyah.

lol.

okay thats it(:

2009-05-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

my msn nick make me laugh like shit.
along with vann.
HAHAHA.
i cannot be bothered at all.
good riddance.

seriiously i dont feel like blogging anymore.
running out of things to blog.
HAHA.

okay i am bored.
LOL.

birthdays are coming!!!(:
not mine though.
chalets are coming.

but money not coming:(
lol.

food is coming LOL.

2009-05-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

i love my ak(:
ahh many many love to them.
if only everyday would be like this
blessed(:

i feel
disappointed.
very
that i have to feel it now,
that i have to feel it this way.

today while i walked to vann house.
to prepare for ak mini gathering.
i realise something.
from the start when i started to go van house,
till now.
its like a cycle.

at first when i went, no renovations.
then as i went many times, renovations start.
and now the lifts are built and in use alrdy.

feels like a cycle.
or like going through a phase.
ahh weird.

walking to vann house is like walking to my house.
its a no-brainer thing.
i didnt need to use my brains at all, you know to think for a while whether is this the correct path.
its like impossible.

like vann says, it feels like my house.
like i can go to just take my drink from the fridge,
like i invite myself over all the time.
there are times i just appear at her house without her knowing at first.
HAHAH.

and i like that feeling, i love that feeling.
that feeling of closeness to someone.
thanks bes(:

i never feels the same way again.
i dont think i will ever.
like i will never be the same again,
because it has cross my limits for tolerance.
and for that, i think something changed.

its been manifesting deep underneath and i just realised that like recently.
obviously my eyes got shit la at first.

but why do i still feel guilty, and upset and so so disappointed?
i neve wanted things to become this way.

2009-05-21T18:42:00.001+08:00

i am a total failure as a human.
i am the stupidest person on earth.
i am the most deserved to get shot person.

please shoot me, or use a metal rod and bang my head.
hopefully, i will change.

:(((

2009-05-15T13:55:00.000+08:00

i am soooooooo bored.
not only i dont have a job. i dont have tuition too.
my tuition kid stopped for a few weeks( yes, you, shiying.) LOL

my sunburnt skin hurts.
HAHA so happy.
i like the feeling.

2009-05-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

currently looking like a boiled lobster.
and feeling damn hot.
haha
the result of tanning.

went adventuring.
AHAAH
fun and tiring.

museummmmmmmmmmm tmr
(:

2009-05-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

i realise that i have clourophobia.
that is, scared of clowns.

and johnny depp has it too!(:
haha
okay not really something to happy.
just i wasnt the one.
so yay.
lol.

my legs are breaking.
ouchhhhhhh.
shopping.
rocks
to
the
max.

haha
saw yihlin!(:
she look different.
haha

i am so addicted to buying bangles.
oh my god.

my money.

okay i need a job. someone recommends please.
HAHA

2009-05-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

i need a job
in order to go shopping.
haha

socccer
manu went home happily with 3 points and 2-0
and muahaahah say byebye to liverpool.
manu sent off arsenal not happily though
i mean arsenal not happy.
yeah(:

so wonderful finishing exams.
all the tv shows.
haha.

jiayou la claud(:

ohhhh
lovely holidays.
haha.

2009-05-01T22:35:00.003+08:00

exams over, i still cant really sleep.
too many things going on.
too much problems.

the only person you can depend on 24/7 is just yourself.
thats what my mum always say.

i realise its true.

weekends again.

2009-04-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

i
finally
finish
my
exams
!

oh man, i waited for this until damn freaking long.
hahA.
yays!
i want to sleep, eat, sleep, eat, shop, watch tv.
read. slack, rot

3 months for me to do this.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh babeeeeeeeeeeee
lol.
i need a job. admin job pleaseeeeeeee

or more gatherings then haha.

holidaysss, here i come!!!!!!!!(:

have a great hols too people.
for those who finished exams.

and jiayou, claud, nat and my twin(:
loveeeeeeeeeeeee.

vann vann, i am FREEEEEEEEEE
here we come!!! lol.
(:

2009-04-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go
i cant wait seriously.

YAY! one more paper to play, to tan, to shop.
haha
hohohoho

i want to watch movie.
want to meet my babes.

and need a job please.
no money le la.
hahaha

and i totally heart this song, my life would suck without you.
surely everyone had that someone or a group of people that makes life so wonderful yeah?

me too(:
with my lovely babes
woooo.

'Cause we belong together now, yeah Forever united here somehow, yeah You got a piece of me And honestly, My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
'Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight I know that I've got issues But you're pretty messed up too Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you '

the lyrics are so meaningful too.
i love kelly clarkson, glad to see her back from the rocker emo chic she was in her previous album, my december. too emo-ed.

i love arsenal starting from now.
cos they managed to clinch a draw with liverpool.
and successfully prevented them from getting 3 POINTS!

oh thank you beloved arsenal.
lol.

manu manu manu tonight(:

i so need to study.
last last paper to second year!
byebye first year(:

2009-04-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

i shouldnt be online, i know.
but a need to check whether my notes are all printed and here beside me is a solid excuse right?
haha

but its not for fun. so i didnt go anywhere or go online on msn.
except to check and then here.
haha

3 papers down!
fast huh.

2 more to go.
i cant wait.

suffering from withdrawal syndromes
its called no-hanging-out-with-friends-withdrawal syndromes.
i didnt see vann for a week plus le leh.
i normally see her at least once a week.
booo.

ntu has the best blueberry cheesecake.
haha.
and the best roast beef.
yummmmmy

i need work.
i need money.

okay back to my mugging.

many many love, babes(:

2009-04-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

bad day horrible day stupid day.

alone yet dont feel like talking.

my mood seems to plummet right to the bottom after yesterday.
i shouldnt have so much trust in anyone.

but i always make the mistake over and over again.

it feels alone when you cant find the people you want to find.

okay bad post.

i need to get offline to study.

2009-04-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

one paper down.
4 papers more to go!

i want to buyyyyyyyyyy.
buy buy buy.

i am getting tired.
its always my fault.
yeah, blame it on me.
cos its easy to, isnt it.

i feel like a superwoman.

i feel misunderstood.

2009-04-13T12:02:00.000+08:00

oh david beckham :DDD

2009-04-12T00:10:00.001+08:00

MACHEDA IS MY IDOL.
move over ronaldo.
its macheda's world now.

yays!! MANU won.
now i got 3 idols.
becks, rooney and MACHEDA!(:

and not to mention how super handsome macheda is.
awwwww.
shuai ge alert(:

kay i going to paste up his photo.
lololol.

its always these days that i felt extremely alone.
and left out.
okay snap out of it.
out.

2009-04-11T20:14:00.001+08:00

studyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
i got this etched in my mind.
but reality is different of cos.
:(

yum cha-ed yesterday(:
i love dian xin(:

boriiiiiiiiing
dont know where vann went today:(((

manchester united pleassssssssssssseeeee winnnnnnnnnnn.

2009-04-10T00:40:00.001+08:00

i got a new handphone!(:

exams coming, major boos.
:(

2009-04-03T21:51:00.001+08:00

110th time!(:
david beckham represent ENGLAND.
wahaha.
woots.

i love love love international matches.
thats the time i got to see david beckham. YEAH!(:

and england won both matches.
yays

*swoon*
world cup come faster please.

i am going to keep a list for van
HAHA.
from now.

made ritty half present.
NUGGET ritty.
haha.

i spent very little today.
so proud of myself.

blooody #$%^$%*&^
fired me.
so hard to teach.
nugggget.

nvm i got another job.
the best tuition kid in the world.
yayayayay.

claud loves me! haha i entertained her today, make her so happy.
(:
haha.

2009-03-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

:(
i am terribly sick.
flu cough sore throat
couldnt really sleep.
feeling horrible.

its so disappointing.
feels... shattered.

thats all i want for now.
to make me feel whole again.
make me feel homed.

but my wishes dont always come true, you know.
think it never does before.

not a happy post.

2009-03-23T14:46:00.001+08:00

:((

2009-03-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin again becos the previous one was too small
and too kiddish.
lol.

met up with the lovely babes of mine(:
sakae sushi-ed
ice-cream-ed.
lovely lovely night(:
do it again darlings!

got one more tuition job to cope with my ever increasing expenditure.
haha.
hundreds more(:

watching soccer.
such a relaxing thing(:

oh BERYL IS SO CUTE!
and kris, drive us around leh LOL. (:

and iam addicted to online shopping
nugget.
vannnnnnnnnnnnn!

oh nugget,
scholes got red card-ed
NUGGET.
and fulham got one goal
rahh.

2009-03-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

i cut myself again:(((((((((((
and the same feeling comes back.
cant see, cant talk cant hear.
rahhh feels terrible.
worse than fainting.
i am super duper clumsy
to the extreme.
ouch:(((

bought so many things this week.
i cant stop. cant stop.
:(

i need to study badly.
omg.

2009-03-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

and i was so sure manu was going to win.
nuggeeeeet.
its freaking 1-3.
4 mins left.

damn pissed.
i dont know how people who put fake nails do things.
so hard.
i cant even type.

i loathe people who talk non stop while watching tv.
i lost my interest in watching tv .
fucking hate.

1-4!
walauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
what's fucking wrong with manu.
SHUCKS SUCKS
SHUCKS

rahhhhh
i am freaking irritated.

shucks.

2009-03-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

damn frrrreaking rain,
damn it.
NUGGET PIG ASSHOLE.

rain rain rain.
stupid weather.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

k-ed! all i want.
YEAH! so high(:
want to do that again please(:

my mood isnt good again.
damn.

and i am frreaking broke and full.
i want that shoes:(
badly please.

i am very tired.

2009-03-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

i am broke again.
not new.

i need exercising.
and studying for my exams.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2009-03-10T23:06:00.001+08:00

me and my sis went to eat(:

CNY!(:

i am moving!

okay not now. in a few mths time,

okay in probably half year's time.

HAHA

i want sleepover(:

was with claud today.

and was shocked when she turned up with an unexpected person.

mr you jiahao.

nugget lo.

never have any good things to say.

dont come back from taiwan ah.

nugget LOL.

i am hungry):

and i am broke

broke.

my tuition kid is the best kid.

so nice, so guai, so hardworking, so ting wo de hua.

you do know i want you to be happy there(:

2009-03-06T09:56:00.001+08:00

good luck to van and neh(:
love you.

2009-02-26T11:45:00.001+08:00

222 CNY gathering for 2009(:

when xl returns(:

at first i uploaded the photo on the right, then horrors to horrors, i realise got no VANN! i dont want to be erm, killed, i quickly went to facebook to resave the one that has vann, the one on the left. and post it. HHAHA. so the final one has vann(:

chinese new year.

its obvious what evil vann is trying to do.

its hard for ak to get all tgt. with my sis being an extra on the left HAHA

my cousins! no CNY is fun without them(: the adorable young toddler is my ultimate favourite(: i think i spoilt her rotten.

hello MINMIN(: haha see your photo? my cousins as always(:

its been so long since i posted up many photos

HAHAH.

so there you go.

not really very busy.

but enough to keep me from updating, or maybe its cos i am lazy.

LOL.

anyway i am looking forward to gatherings.

so NAT, better start planning and moving.

hahaha.

i want a chalet.

i want sentosa.

cycling, tanning.

shopping.

i had a movie marathon ever since cny starts.

the number of movies i watch is like wow.

i watched the wedding game,

love matters,

bride war,

he's just not that into you,

benjamin button,

twilight,

rachel getting married.

in just one month.

no wonder my money fly.

i am addicted:(

i love he's just not that into you.

so funny, so realistic, so easy to relate to.

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeett(:

i lovee ginnifer goodwin.

she is sooooooooooooooooooo cuteeeee.

like so real girls like us.

HAHA.

okay i super like their soundtracks!(:

2009-02-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

finally i change my blogskin.
getting sick of the old one.

claud says i didnt update my blog so i am doing it now.

chinese new year is like so over.
but my visiting went over.
and my cousin is soooooooooooo cute.
and naughty. lol.

i am having a week break.
with quizes coming up after that OF COS.
not so good to give us one week break to do nothing.

i feel like i haven shop for months, years.
haven gone out for mths and years.
haven laugh for mths and years.
haven been really really happy for mths and years.

though i have been feeling really alone these days.
ouch:(

and not to mention, sick again.

i got a new tuition kid, thanks to nat.
and finally. income coming in.

sometimes, i desperately want a something who is there 24/7, every seconds, every minutes, everytime i want it to be.

i am so busy, yet not so busy.